Four More Days

Oh my god. We are down to four days. This time next week and we will be in Ava's Province. It is scary and exciting. I try and think what it will be like being there in her Province the day before we get her. That day and night are going to seem like they will never end. The anxiety of knowing that you are the closest that you have ever been to her and knowing that the very next day you will be meeting her for the very first time in person. I catch myself wondering if we will be able to pick Ava out from the other children. I catch myself wondering what it will be like the first night alone with her and Terri in our hotel room. Wondering if I will be able to comfort her and make her feel safe in my arms. I can honestly say that I am scared of that night. Scared but also excited.