What an Emotional Roller Coaster We Are On

I got a huge scare yesterday. I called the Children's Aid Society yesterday and asked them to add my wife and I to there list of people willing to adopt from them. The social worker informed me that our home study is no longer any good. Apparently as of April the government has implemented new rules regarding home studies and a new course that is mandatory. The new course is called PRIDE. It can't be taken privately. The government has to be the ones to teach it to you. I told the social worker that we were involved in the China international adoption program. She then informed me that she has received notice that China is shutting down their international adoption program. I was shocked. I didn't know what to say to her. I basically began to panic. She told me that the best thing that my wife and I could do would be to request a new home study from the Children's Aid Society and get enrolled in the new PRIDE course that is now mandatory. She said that the sooner we get those out of the way the sooner we can get added to their lists of potential adopters. Needless to say when I got off the phone I was almost crying. I didn't know how I was going to tell my wife about this devastating news. So I waited to tell her until I had sent Jenna Ryan at Children's Bridge an e-mail asking her about what I had heard. Jenna sent me back an e-mail stating that she had not heard anything about this news. She reminded me that they would know these things first because they are always in constant contact with the CCAA. This helped calm me down. I thanked Jenna for getting back to me so fast. This roller coaster that we are all on is just unbelievable. Sometimes I don't know how to deal with all these emotions. They can certainly be overwhelming. All we can do is try to stay positive about this ride that we are all on.